{"id":207,"date":"2025-05-16T03:56:56","date_gmt":"2025-05-16T00:56:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/?p=207"},"modified":"2025-05-16T03:56:56","modified_gmt":"2025-05-16T00:56:56","slug":"hayatin-sustugu-yer-sabah-03-17","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/hayatin-sustugu-yer-sabah-03-17.html","title":{"rendered":"Hayat\u0131n Sustu\u011fu Yer: Sabah 03.17"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Saat 03.17.<br>Uykunun \u00e7oktan ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u015fehrin sesinin neredeyse yok oldu\u011fu o keskin zaman dilimi. Ne g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn tela\u015f\u0131 var, ne gecenin yorgunlu\u011fu. Zaman durmu\u015f gibi. Sokak lambalar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 ayn\u0131 renkte ama art\u0131k ba\u015fka bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131kla parl\u0131yor. \u0130\u00e7eride, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da, her yerde bir durgunluk\u2026 \u0130nsan bazen tam da bu saatlerde fark ediyor: <strong>As\u0131l sessizlik d\u0131\u015far\u0131da de\u011fil, i\u00e7inde.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bu saatlerde hayat, t\u00fcm makyaj\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor. Rol yapm\u0131yor kimse. Sosyal medyada hi\u00e7bir \u015fey payla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131yor, bildirimler susmu\u015f, telefon ekran\u0131 \u00f6ylece karanl\u0131k. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 de\u011fil, duvarlar\u0131 dinliyorsun. Zihnin, susturmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n her d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyi s\u0131rayla \u00f6n\u00fcme koyuyor. G\u00fcn boyu \u00fczerini \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ne varsa, geceyle birlikte tekrar canlan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">03.17\u2019de ge\u00e7mi\u015fin ayak sesleri duyulur. \u201c\u015eu karar\u0131 almasayd\u0131m nas\u0131l olurdu?\u201d, \u201cNeden o mesaj\u0131 atmad\u0131m?\u201d, \u201cBeni ger\u00e7ekten seven oldu mu?\u201d, \u201cBen kime d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum?\u201d \u0130nsan\u0131n akl\u0131na, hi\u00e7 zaman\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclmeyen sorular geliyor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcnd\u00fcz insan\u0131n dikkatini da\u011f\u0131tan binlerce \u015fey, bu saatte yok. Maskesizsin. Kelimelere de\u011fil, i\u00e7indeki sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyorsun. Ve orada kendini bulmak zorundas\u0131n. Ya da kaybetmek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<!--more-->\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Yast\u0131\u011fa kafan\u0131 koydu\u011funda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn son \u015fey neydi? Kim bilir, belki pi\u015fmanl\u0131k\u2026 Belki de yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir c\u00fcmle. \u00c7o\u011fu zaman birisine s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fimiz \u015feyler, kendimize d\u00f6n\u00fcp duran bo\u011fuk c\u00fcmleler h\u00e2line gelir. \u201cKe\u015fke\u201d, \u201cneden\u201d ve \u201cacaba\u201d kelimeleri 03.17&#8217;nin m\u00fczi\u011fidir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bazen kendini ge\u00e7mi\u015fte bir yerde unutmu\u015f gibi hissedersin. Ruhun h\u00e2l\u00e2 oradad\u0131r, ama bedenin g\u00fcnlerdir buradad\u0131r. Zaman ileri akar ama sen geride kal\u0131rs\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte o kopu\u015fu en iyi bu saatlerde hissedersin. \u0130nsan, en \u00e7ok gecenin sessizli\u011finde kendine sorular sorar ama en az cevaplar\u0131 burada bulur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki de bu saatler, herkesin ruhuyla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saklamas\u0131na gerek duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlard\u0131r. \u0130tiraf edelim: Bazen sabah\u0131n geli\u015fi, geceyle y\u00fczle\u015fememekten do\u011fan bir ka\u00e7\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. <strong>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 sorular\u0131n cevab\u0131n\u0131 bilmek isteriz ama duymaya haz\u0131r de\u011filiz.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Saat h\u00e2l\u00e2 03.17.<br>Ben h\u00e2l\u00e2 buraday\u0131m.<br>&#8230;<br>Ve hayat, bir kez daha susmay\u0131 se\u00e7ti.<br>Ama bu sefer sadece o de\u011fil.<br>Ben de sustum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Gibran Alcocer - Idea 10 (1 Hour Loop)\" width=\"660\" height=\"371\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/pmFgJEB-AZ0?list=PLZ-5t_Fpknjad4-e-p1TTqc03wOupCNFr\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Saat 03.17.Uykunun \u00e7oktan ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u015fehrin sesinin neredeyse yok oldu\u011fu o keskin zaman dilimi. Ne g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn tela\u015f\u0131 var, ne gecenin yorgunlu\u011fu. Zaman durmu\u015f gibi. Sokak lambalar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 ayn\u0131 renkte ama art\u0131k ba\u015fka bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131kla parl\u0131yor. \u0130\u00e7eride, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da, her yerde bir durgunluk\u2026 \u0130nsan bazen tam da bu saatlerde fark ediyor: As\u0131l sessizlik d\u0131\u015far\u0131da de\u011fil, i\u00e7inde. 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