G\u00fcnd\u00fcz me\u015fgul\u00fcz.
Mesajlar, i\u015fler, sorumluluklar, insanlar\u2026 Her \u015fey bir ses, her \u015fey bir dikkat b\u00f6lmesi. Zihnimiz s\u00fcrekli bir \u015feyle u\u011fra\u015fmak zorunda. O kadar \u00e7ok u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yoruz ki, kendimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye vakit bulam\u0131yoruz. Ya da belki de bilerek bulmuyoruz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek yorar. Hele gece olunca, o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k gibi y\u00fckselir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Geceleri daha fazla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sessizlik art\u0131k bir bo\u015fluk de\u011fil, bir yank\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz bast\u0131r\u0131lan duygular, gece kabaran bir deniz gibi y\u00fckselir. Ve dalgalar, tam da yata\u011fa uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7arpar sana. O karanl\u0131kta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler daha net g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn lo\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda fark etmedi\u011fin o hisler, gece ba\u015fucuna oturur. Ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fin bir i\u00e7 ses, sana unuttu\u011fun her \u015feyi teker teker hat\u0131rlat\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mesela y\u0131llar \u00f6nce kapanm\u0131\u015f bir defterin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda gezinirsin. K\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klar, yar\u0131m kalan konu\u015fmalar, ke\u015fke\u2019ler, belki\u2019ler… O ki\u015fiye neden \u00f6yle dedi\u011fini hat\u0131rlars\u0131n. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na neden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fini\u2026 Kendine neden bu kadar y\u00fcklendi\u011fini fark edersin. Gece, insan\u0131n kendisiyle y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fi yerdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
Geceleri daha \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yaln\u0131z\u0131z. Ama bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k fiziksel de\u011fil. O, \u00e7ok daha derin bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k. Kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n ortas\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131nan bir bo\u015fluk hissi. O y\u00fczden gece, o bo\u015flu\u011fun sesini yank\u0131lar. \u0130nsan ancak yaln\u0131zken kendine yakla\u015fabilir. Ve bazen kendimize yakla\u015fmak, ba\u015fkas\u0131na yakla\u015fmaktan daha ac\u0131 verici olabilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yast\u0131\u011fa kafan\u0131 koydu\u011funda \u201ciyi ki\u201dler de\u011fil, \u201cacaba\u201dlar d\u00f6ner zihninde. B\u00fct\u00fcn ihtimaller, b\u00fct\u00fcn pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar, b\u00fct\u00fcn sessiz ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar s\u0131raya girer. \u201cBug\u00fcn ona \u015f\u00f6yle mi deseydim?\u201d
\u201cKe\u015fke \u015fu g\u00fcn \u015f\u00f6yle yapsayd\u0131m\u2026\u201d Ya da sadece i\u00e7ten bir sitem gelir: \u201cBen neden hep b\u00f6yleyim?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama belki de gece, sadece bir temizliktir. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn bast\u0131r\u0131lanlar\u0131n, tozlanan duygular\u0131n temizlendi\u011fi bir i\u00e7 ar\u0131nmad\u0131r. A\u011flamak bile bazen geceye mahsustur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n da bir utanc\u0131 vard\u0131r, bir mahremiyeti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yine de k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck de\u011fildir gece. Karanl\u0131k korkutmaz bizi; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015feyler korkutur.
Ama o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler, b\u00fcy\u00fcmemiz i\u00e7in gereklidir. Yaralar\u0131 fark etmek i\u00e7in, onlar\u0131 sarabilmek i\u00e7in \u00f6nce yaln\u0131z kalmak gerekir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve belki de bu y\u00fczden\u2026 G\u00fcnd\u00fcz me\u015fgul\u00fcz.Mesajlar, i\u015fler, sorumluluklar, insanlar\u2026 Her \u015fey bir ses, her \u015fey bir dikkat b\u00f6lmesi. Zihnimiz s\u00fcrekli bir \u015feyle u\u011fra\u015fmak zorunda. O kadar \u00e7ok u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yoruz ki, kendimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye vakit bulam\u0131yoruz. Ya da belki de bilerek bulmuyoruz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek yorar. Hele gece olunca, o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k gibi y\u00fckselir. Geceleri daha fazla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sessizlik art\u0131k bir bo\u015fluk … Okumaya devam et Gece: Unutamad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n Mesai Saati<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":233,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[73,72,54,71],"class_list":["post-232","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kisisel","tag-bizde-deriniz","tag-derin-dusunceler","tag-gece","tag-gece-mesaisi"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=232"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":253,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/232\/revisions\/253"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/233"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=232"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=232"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mustafaalniak.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=232"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Geceleri daha fazla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcnd\u00fcz unuttu\u011fumuz \u015feyler gece bize kendini hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"